Dear Friend

Dear Friend,

I am writing this because in order to preserve the peace I apologized for having said something snarky. It is what we do sometimes even when we are not sorry and believe we have been wronged and are owed an apology ourselves. We do it in order to keep the peace and attempt to move on with our lives...

Months of malicious, insidious, and manipulative behavior and your inability to stand up to it have contributed to these feelings. Our mutual friend's inability to take responsibility for their actions and apologize for hurting feelings has perhaps led me to be more angry than is justified in this particular situation. The proverbial straw on the camel's back as it were.

I realize no one is without blame in this. Everyone has brought their own baggage and hurt from past experiences and indiscretions. My regret is my own inability to not stumble over my emotions; I hope that I can come away from this situation a better person and learn from my own mistakes. Most importantly, I hope to find ways to not repeat these mistakes in the future; to find the balance between being open and honest about who I am and what I need, but not to pour the feelings on the floor to be trampled on and salvaged for the next round.

Perhaps we were meant to have this brief tragic friendship so both of us could take away the scars of it and become better people in the future. It is a shame that we can not know now what we will know then. I hope our paths will cross again in the future and that time will begin to heal the wounds of the hurts we have experienced. I hope for your sake that you will find a way to dig past the inherent noise I brought to the table, and confront the issues at the core of this for your other relationship-the inherent dichotomies, half-truths, and unspoken words that have gotten caught up in our strange association of friends.

All my best to you and yours.
~K