From out of the Depths

I named this blog "From out of the Depths" because when I started it there was much going on with life and I really was in the depths of depression, sadness, and fear. A marriage that was falling apart, post-partum depression, and healing and recovering from childhood sexual abuse. It has taken me a long time to get to a place where I can openly talk about what happened. I have wanted to use this blog to talk more about the healing process I have gone through and the things that have happened along the way, but it has taken a few years to garner the courage to End the Silence. I hope that others will find it helpful, whether it is to help someone you know in your life that has survived a trauma or if you have yourself.

In 2009 I wrote a letter to the man who hurt me as part of therapy. I reported the incident to the police even though it happened many years ago but it was positively freeing. I gave it up to the universe to handle it. After the investigation I discovered that the man had died many years ago. Interestingly, had I known this at the time, I never would have continued my therapy or reported it to the police, which was a HUGE part of my healing process.

In July 2010, I saw a request for submissions to the End the Silence Campaign. I submitted the letter that I wrote, and on April 1, 2011 as part of Sexual Assault Awareness month it was published on their blog. I was both mortified, exhilarated, and confused all at the same time. Should I share? Should I post it on Facebook? What was going to happen? I realized by NOT sharing I was defeating the purpose of Ending the Silence. So now today, back to this blog. I realized that speaking out and speaking up and helping others do the same is my way to help give back.

So I hope to be posting more often and more about Sexual Assault and healing from it with the random other life stuff thrown in.